I was with my in-laws this Christmas. My first Christmas as a wife! That part is exciting! I am so happy to be married, because of my husband. We've been though a tough time together and apart, and though spending our first Christmas together was warm to my heart, not having my family around me too, was like a small prick of a needle. My family is awesome - of course!
Do you know what it's like to see you're husband's mum hug him over and over again in front of your face? It's bearable for a while, but then it just makes me miss my family even more. So, I find myself steering clear when I see stuff like that happening. Save myself from the emotional "bring me down" and just occupy myself else where. Just smile and waves girls, smile and wave! Lucky for me, my family knows how to be present even when they are not physically present. Skype and such nowadays make things so much easier, and they're soooo much fun to chat with.
I love to write too. That has always helped me. Keeping a diary, personal book or a journal, and whenever I feel like expressing feelings, I write them down. Many times I will find out things about myself or my feelings that I didn't even know, before I began writing them down that is. Like, there would be times when I would surprise myself as I'm writing, finish a sentence and say, "Wooooow..." LOL. May be crazy to a lot of people, but everyone deals with things different ways. Writing is one of my outputs. I recommend it too. It's helped me through lots of things, including relationships, because I explain things better once I've written it down. I used to read some of my entries to my husband early on in our relationship, and he still knows if he wants to really know how I feel he'll ask to read. I don't write everyday just whenever I feel i need to let something out. Plus, I love flipping back and reading things about my life that usually I would never remember.
I'll put one of my entries in my blog just to show what kind of things I write. This is kind of turning into something I would usually write in my personal book too I suppose..Huh.. But hey, maybe it'll be nice to share a few things here and there on my blog to. Especially, about being away from home, and how to deal with it. Being engaged, planning a wedding! Marriage and dealing with in-laws. Yup!
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